Many thanks to everyone who joined our next to last prayer call. They’re going by so quickly! Next week is our last week already. I pray this series has been a blessing to you Ladies. It’s certainly been a blessing to me.
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Below is a transcript of the devotional I shared:
I didn’t prepare a traditional devotional tonight because I really just want to talk to you; to encourage you.
Sometimes, when we stop to think about the enormity of our God, how good He is and how undeserving we are, we can become frozen in our own tracks. The enemy will begin to lie to us, telling us we have nothing to offer. Or trying to convince us that we’ll never be able to get our lives together enough to be of service to such a good God.
But my prayer tonight is that in sharing a little bit of my testimony that you’ll be encouraged — not just to tell the devil to go to hell (literally!), but to also keep pursuing God on your walk with him.
I won’t bore you with the details of my birth story or anything quite that long ago. But what I will tell you is that in late February/early March of this year I felt like God was so far away. I felt like for all the good I thought I was doing, I wasn’t sure where God was and I wasn’t sure that He was pleased.
In January, I’d done a stint of praying everyday at the same time. And from that time with God the idea — and the guest — for my first Leap Luncheon Series™ was revealed to me. But, like I always had, I soon found myself “too tired” to stay up later or to get up earlier. And, the “habit” quickly became past-tense.
The following month, when I tried to recreate the magic of the first luncheon, I found that I was a day late and a dollar short. An advisor told me that invites to really notable folks had to go out a month in advance, if not sooner. And just like that, what was supposed to be a monthly luncheon was on its first hiatus.
I sulked for a little while over why my event seemed so short-lived and what the Holy Spirit revealed to me was that I’d stopped seeking the Source. I’d become so enamored with the gift, that I’d turned my eyes from the gift giver.
The revelation convicted me and I immediately committed to returning to my 4:45am prayer and meditation times.
Since then, I’ve had five more successful Leap events. I’ve been blessed to bless others — giving gifts of money and resources to other folks who cross my path. I’ve been invited to be a guest speaker at a few different events as well. And the future looks…exciting.
I look back now, seven months into my decision to give God the first hour of my day, and I realize that it wasn’t until I chose to physically and literally seek God first, as we’re admonished in Matthew 6:33 that things started to turn around for me.
I decided to live out the truth that God was and is my Source. That means not worrying when bank accounts run low – or overdrawn – but choosing to trust God instead. And He’s proven that He is indeed an on-time God.
I decided to live out the truth to lean not to my own understanding and to commit my ways to Him. That meant asking God simple things like, What should I put on my to-do list today?, and then prioritizing the things He gave me. And He’s proven that every detail of my life is important to Him.
What I’ve found was that at that time when I started this daily prayer time, I felt like I didn’t have anything to give God. I literally felt like, I have nothing to offer you, God. But I know you’ve been good enough to warrant me missing a few winks, so here I am.
There have been mornings when I’ve hit snooze one too many times and had to make up my prayer time at the end of the day. There have been mornings that I’ve been so tired that I’ve fallen asleep intermittently throughout. And times when I literally wrote in my prayer journal, God, I’ve got nothing to say this morning. I’ve gone to Him angry and disappointed. Sad and confused. I’ve prayed in tongues some mornings, sobbed uncontrollably others, and simply sat in silence for some others.
But in the six or so months since I’ve been really trying to commit to this thing, God’s moved in a mighty way in my life. He’s grown this luncheon idea to a multi-city brand that one day may make me a little money and give me a national platform. On May 19th He told me write down some declarations. One of them described a house in great detail that I, at the time, never thought I could have or afford. Today, I’m excited to say we’ve placed an offer on the very house He described to me and we’re just waiting for the confirmation that its ours.
I’ve often in the past few months made it a priority to give big gifts, to give when it hurts, or to give when I’m down to my very last dollars as a means to show God I trust Him and/or to sow seeds for the desires He’s placed in my heart. Just last week a couple gave my husband and I a substantial sum of money to help us get our down payment together for the house God told me was ours. Just like that. Out of the blue.
Look, I’m not perfect. And I don’t share these testimonies with you to brag or to somehow say I’m better than anyone. I’m a sinner of the worst kind perhaps.
But I share these bits of my story with you to say this:
1. God sees you. He knows how you’re sacrificing and sowing in tears and labor. He sees all that you’re doing and going through and He is faithful to reward your efforts. I’m a witness to that.
2. You are all the gift God needs. Don’t ever think that you have nothing to give God. If all you give HIm is your time and attention – and it doesn’t have to be all at once or for some long period of time, it can be throughout the day, while you’re sitting in traffic, or even in the shower. But if you give HIm you, if you choose to seek Him first literally, He’ll bless you for your efforts.
And 3. You are not alone. I struggle all the time with figuring out how to get it all done in a day. Whether you’re juggling a business, a husband, and kids like me, or you’re just trying to figure out where to live, what to do, or who to date, you aren’t alone. God loves you and He cares about every detail of your life. If you’d ask His opinion, tell Him, Lord, I’ll do whatever you want me to today, He’s faithful to direct your path. I’m a witness.
I don’t always get up in the morning. And I jack up on my walk many times every hour of the day. But I can say that since I’ve decided to prioritize time with God, my faith has grown, my expectation has grown, and the room that I leave in my life for God to do miracles has grown, too.
The sellers of our new house haven’t accepted our offer yet, but they will. I don’t yet have all of the money I need for a down payment either. I don’t know how we’re going to afford the renovations and I’m not sure when we’ll move in.
But of this one thing I am certain: Philippians 4:19 NIV. God will meet all of my needs.
And He will meet yours too. Just have faith, have expectation, and trust Him enough to take the LEAP He’s planted in your heart.
…all He really wants in return is you.